Gratitude Journal Day #151: Wednesday, 3/3/21

YAY! First Hump Day of March is here!

3.) Had a couple days off – Yup. I wasn’t right Monday or Tuesday. Waaay too neurosis and stiffness to consider sitting at a desk for long periods, being docked for RR breaks. I SHOULD have done super yoga, worked out more, knocked on some limits with my body. I didn’t. *shrugs* Instead, I kept head up by diving into my blog’s changes. I’m giving serious thought to changing my priorities but the stress of everything is… #YouGetIt. I’m back in the saddle today with an earlier start time for the work-from-home. *gulp* 👀

2.) Got my ADA documents signed – That’s the good news. I got ’em done. Finally. After a whole month of chewing on my fingers. The gig is making necessary adjustments to “clean the place up,” rid the company of bad or inefficient Customer Service Representatives. It was coming. The place reeks of bad management and that produces bad employees. Like many other companies, this started at the bottom so they’re cutting MY position. The changes being made directly impact ME. Stuff like RR breaks (Hello! I got PPMS. I have RR issues and need frequent trips.), speed working with members and callers (Yo. PPMS. I can’t even feel my left hand on most days so typing is harder.) and then all the wires slow me down even more. My PCP, former, advised me to just get unemployment or disability. I can’t because I pulled my Teacher Retirement before the MS diagnosis. Got the ADA, American Disabilities Act, documents so I can prove my need for accommodations.

1.) Know what? I’m grateful that was my last time seeing a specific PCP – *brushes off shoulders* Last night was the last time SHE ignore my concerns, questions, responses, stories and wants. Yeah, I’m grateful she did the basics of her profession by signing my ADA forms but that was it. There was no talk about my wellness, how she could help, what I can do to improve, review of my vitamins, nothing. I wanted a prescription for Nystatin, kills the candida fungus, but no go there either. She and the office bragged about how good I looked and weight I gained before checking charts and realizing I lost it. I don’t know man but I am #sickAF. I have an expectation of how I should be treated and it wasn’t met. I will NOT afford that. I will NOT risk it. I have seen my PCP twice in 4 years so I don’t even go that much but I’m out. That fly-by, check up, she did? Didn’t even run a lab or a test. *shakes head* Grateful I am so cool with moving forward.

Previous entry of Gratitude: Tuesday, 3/2/21

Next entry of Gratitude: Thursday, 3/4/21

Why keep a Gratitude Journal at all? (This is the saaaaaame intro for every Gratitude Journal entry. It’s here for the newbies to the journey.)

I try to start everyday with a Grateful heart. *duck face* Potna, I ain’t lying. You can check my IG accounts Queen/King. I get a lil raunchy on the Multiple_Sclerosis_Outlaw but I’m calmer, gentle with allthingsonelove. On both, I start my day sharing Gratitudes, stories of Gratitude and anything related to being Grateful. I’m dead ass serious about my Gratitudes because it keeps me present and accountable for my own energy. I recognize and appreciate the actions, words and energy of others intending me good. By starting my day with Gratitude, I have less MS pain, MS symptoms and MS depression because I’m actively pushing my thoughts towards a positive direction of Gratitude. My relationships with others are stronger because my Grateful ass notices what others do for me, to me, WITH me. *bows* I could go on and on and on and on about the benefits of being purposefully grateful buuuuuut… *whispers* Pssst, you know I wrote about it…

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